You probably won't read this stupid sad true story of mine.

first of all, sorry for no post for like months hehe. got busy with tests i'm a 9 grader :)

so i probably will rarely updating my blog. Sorry guys :)

so here it is... it's a stupid sad true story of mine. you probably want to sleep if you see this. but you have to read this and give me your opinion, and by the way. i want to THANK YOU and I APOLOGIZE IF I HAVE ANY MISTAKES. wish me luck for my National Exam okey ? :)

one thing that i ever hate is

Saying hello that end up with a goodbye, and doing it all over again and again.

do you feel what i really feel ? guess not.

let me get it straight for you. just imagine like this.

you're moved to a new place, a new environment, meet new people.

saying hello to everybody and tell about yourself, not long you become really close with them.

close i mean, like it will never fade away, and you'll not go away. you always stay together with them.

but, you realized that it'll never happen. you say goodbye and moved away. leave everyone you thought you'd never lose.

then stay in a new place, saying hello, get really close with everybody, then you have to say goodbye again, you moved. and it will go on and go on.

Now, do you really understand what i feel ?

i'm sick with all this stupid useless things.

i want to stay in one place, with everybody i loved, and never leave them.

i hate it ! i hate to know that i already moved for 8 times, and now i have to do it all over again.

i have to say hello to everyone that i will say goodbye in the end.

i mean, i just wish i say hello to everyone i'll never say goodbye to.

when i was a young girl, moved away it's not really this bad. i don't even think that i have to say goodbye in the end.

all i think about is 'how beautiful is the place where i will stay', 'hows the house ?', 'is there any playground'.

i didn't think that i have to making new friends and blending with the environment.

because, it was more easier when you're still a kid. people stay the same.

But when you're growing up, things happen. mostly bad things, people changes, and friends leave.

like what happened to me when i was a 7 grader on one of the junior high school in Malang.

ever heard BULLYING ?

yuph, that's what attacked me. get bullied is bad as hell that ever happened to me.

i'm not telling my mom, because i think that it happens because of my parents told me to moved.

i know it's wrong but, i can't trust anyone at that time. even when i cried and yelled " I don't want to school in there!!!"

my mom only said "it's school, all you have to do is studying." i really hate that sentence since i heard it.

i mean i am a human, you can't live alone, you can't even die alone.

and i can't go to school and not talk with everybody except book. that sucks !

now, bully is gone. i've moved like i always do.

get a new place, new life a much better life, and great friends.

spend my 2 years in a great class with an extraordinary people. 9-1 (NinE ONe) a.k.a NEON.

good times happens, well there's a bad times but all i can remember is LAUGH.

i don't want to leave this class.

my feelings for has grow and it becomes great and greater.

now, i'm a 9 grader soon i will leave my junior high school. i will leave this extraordinary class.

Time flies so fast you know. and what makes it sucks is, to know that time flies so fast when you're enjoying your good times. but when you're sad, time goes slower than ever.

that's why i always try to capture every moment that i had. because deep down i know that soon or later, i will lose it. if i lose it,  i want to remember it one day.

i will put those perfect photos in special photo album, that one day when i old i will open it again and remembering all the beautiful moments i had. to understands that 

Life is not just about pain its also about happiness. Its about Love and Heartbreak. Its about Tears and Laugh. Its about me and them. Its about Me and Him. its about US.

and it will remain the same if one day, just "if" one day we all changed.

 if i have to fill this post with all the great photos, it will never ends.

i wanna say thank you to every single person of you, who makes me smile even just for a while.

you have to know that, even just for a while you already gave me one great memories that will always stay in my heart.

Love-Love-Love

Ladinia Dalintasya.

Welcome April !!

Hey Everybody ! It's April !!

Wow! times goes really fast. just yesterday i said "Welcome March" and now we're entering the new month.

well, Happy New Month Everybody !

it's really nice to know that God still give me a chance to live in this world, to feel, and remember the things after 14th years i live.

Thanks God..

well, not all months goes so well. it must have the things that makes me happy and sad in this March.

and here they are. i try to share it with you.

Things Makes Me Happy In This March :

- There's so much unforgettable memories about Max and I such as: we're talk and LOL, text so FUN, and smile to each other and so many else.

- Had a school holiday for a week.

- Got a new bag :P, a cute little bag for hang out.

- My Best Friend, Nanda had a sweet birthday surprise from my friend. too bad i can't join them cause we're apart now.

- Watched horror movies with friends and still LOL till now if we remember all the 'funny things'.

- Got an extra time to spend my day in front of my laptop.

- Spend more time with my little bro.

- Got an extra money form my dad (I Love You Daddy !)

Things Makes Me Out OF My Mood In This March:

 - School break that makes me get bored.

- Getting lazy to go to basketball practice.

- Got nothing to do.

- 'Max' share a story about 'something' that makes him happy but makes me sad.

- My mom goes to Malang for two weeks.

- No Hang out and almost spend my days in my room.

- To clean my messy room :D.

- Sick that makes me (maybe) not go to basketball practice tomorrow.

- Can't see Max for one weeks (blah!)

- I Miss my class, and my friends too. i wanna LOL and get crazy with them again.

- Wet season in my country. hate rain -,-

My Hope For This Month:

- My BFF, Oline's Birthday can be the greatest and unforgettable birthday bash for her(it's 28th A.

- Got someone for April Fool's day! haha

- Max can spend more time with me. text me, smile at me, talk and LOL again.

- Max doesn't get back with his ex-GF.

- Out of my 'bored' mood.

- Can playing basketball better than now.

- Everyday such a beautiful day to spend.

- Can get more ideas and inspiration for posting in this blog.

- hope in this new month i can be a better person that before.

-More Sunny day to spend in.

 

so, that's all Things That Makes Me Happy, Makes Me Sad, and My Hope for this Month.

thank you for you who always read and say hello in my blog. can't wait for more hello :)

 LoveLove,xo

-T-