More More In Hate With You

if i ask you

" do you believe in true love ?"

i'm sure that you'll answer "yes"

but, i had my own answer

" Yes, but they'll never be with you "

i just can believe how stupid i am when i'm falling in love in a wrong guy.

the one who always makes me hurts, makes me sad, makes me cry, makes me want to hate him so much.

today i found that Max get back with his ex-GF.

i found him at the canteen, i want to buy a water. so, i saw him sit and his ex-GF buy a water maybe because i'm there so his ex-GF sat in different seat. and when i look at him, he looks at me with a scary faces makes me scared.

i'm just so confused why he so hates me when i know about him and his ex-GF ?

like i will tell everyone in school that you're with her ?!

like i will tell everyone that she's not right with you ?!

like i will destroy your relationship ?!

i was crying out like that when i'm home, i throw my bag on my bed. and crying out loud with my face closed by my pillow.

when i see my face in the mirror i felt so stupid !

" why i'm crying just for a boy like him ?!"

" I HATE YOU ! WHY YOU JUST NOT INVISIBLE ? I AM INVISIBLE FOR YOU RIGHT ? I WANT YOU TO GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE ! I'D PREFER STRANDED IN A DESSERT ALONE, THAT BE WITH YOU HERE AND ALWAYS SEE YOUR (STUPID) FACE ! "

i know it's just not like me, but you're the one who makes me like this.

and now, facts that i found today :

1. True Love is Real but, They'll Never Be With You

2. Love = Pain

3. More in Hate With You

I Love Weekend

love love weekend !

saturday again haha love this day full of happiness and laughs.

so this day i wore a red ribbon headband to school, and when i took a break after played basketball i putted that ribbon headband to my friend's head. you think that's might be okay. but no! my friend is a boy haha one of my guy-friends :D. hey but he doesn't pull it off, he still wore it while shoot the ball in to the ring haha it's really funny you know when he act like he is a girl haha me and my friends that saw him was LOL and i mean really loud.

we took a pics too, but too bad i can't show it to you now, my USB is broken -,-. maybe next time.

full of craziness !

can't wait for tomorrow ! My Mom back from Malang yipppyyyy !

Mama... I miss you soooooooooo much !

i wanna see your smile again, hear your jokes again, and hear you yell at me to get a shower hehe.

oh and this little things that i wanna share with you

this little text was mean a lot for me. just like what i feel right now, but it's too late he belongs to someone else. passing up on an opportunity is a ridiculous thing.

tell me what do you think and give me some advice

thank you :)

have a wonderful weekend everyone !

but, don't forget to check this blog out :P haha

love ya'll with all my heart

-Tasya-

It's Nice to Know You But It Hurts so much

to know you, it's nice

to smile at you, it's great

to see your smile at me, it's wonderful

to talk with you, it's awesome

to texting with you, it's fun

to love you, it's beautiful

to have you, it's impossible.

 

you're everything i've ever wanted but you always makes me hurts so much.

i want to forget you but it's hard.

so i don't wanna know about love anymore

all you can do is broke my heart over and over. again and again.

don't you know that you're the only thing on my mind that i always miss, i always need, and i always love.

it's you baby..its you..

but you broke my heart !

it's enough !!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(image via we heart it) 

The Movie Was HORROR but Why Is It FUNNY ?

that tittle is a question to me.

so this day i watched movie called " The Messangers 2: The Scarecrow"

the genre of the movies is horror but why is it funny ?

first thing that go on your mind maybe " yeah it's the genre of that movie horror comedy".

but no! for me that movies was truly horror and thriller. i always afraid of thriller movie. cause of the violence.

watch movie with friends is really FUN. especially if the movie we watch is horror. the music that so loud, they're turn off the lights and the screams from the audience that shocked by the loud music.

if the music goes weird or suddenly off, that's the clue for the shocking music and i already close my ear with my hand haha i'm so shocked everytime that loud music comes.

plus...! my friends beside me (left and right) screams while they're trying to hide behind me. my ears feels like " boooiinnggg"

first when i arrived, bought  a small popcorn then entered the theater.

wooo.. i love my seat you know why ??

because my friend beside me bought popcorn too, i putted mine in my left food pocket and my friends at my right. so strategic ! all you have to do is choose. left or right. but i choose both of them :P

there's a time when my friends that sat in front of me talked to us and when the music goes loud, they scream so loud too hahha it's FUN to saw their freakin' out face haha.

and when the stars on that movie fight the ghost the music was so shocking us ! and i saw my friends that sat in front of me freakin' out while hug my friend that sat in the middle of them haha. that's so romantic and creepy haha

at the end of the movie when they're turn back on the lights there's a child that scream so loud. of course we laugh cause' he's so cute and "come'on they're just turn on the lights" haha why he's scream ? .

too bad i don't bring my camera :( but i still captured all the FUNNY moments in my mind it's so beautiful and still got me LOL. just like a movie.

after watch movies. we went to the mall that near the movie.

i found a child that race a little car. and i just blocked his way. if he's go right, i go right. if he's go left i'll go left haha (i am very sneaky). and that boy whine said "mama.." haha and i just walk away while laugh with my friends :P

i can stay too long with my friends cause' i'm promise with my mom to go home before my brothers go home (yes my bro go to school). huh.. i hate it, i wanna stay with my friends and LOL with them.

oh yes ! there's one thing that i wanna tell you,

yesterday i bought max pulse so we texting. and you know what max always act like don't care about everything. but yesterday he's so funny. he's got a sense of humor too.

unpredictable boy. LIKE IT !

p.s: i made a new header, what do you guys think ? is it good ? please tell me what you think. oh! and i made a new button too, please copy the code to your blog :)

thanks all

-T-

What I Love about This Week

well, finally comes Saturday. my favorite day in whole week.

no lessons, no practice, and no study cause tomorrow is a holiday haha

yes ! i'm on holiday for a month yayyy..

from 29 March until 3rd April lol

a month isn't it ? :D

so, i decided to make things that i love in this week :)

1. Almost everyday i'm surfing the net since my mom goes to Malang. (hehe bad girl)

2. Listen to Alice In Wonderland Soundtrack 'Almost Alice' everyday. just some songs that sang by singer that i know.

 
3. Listen to Justin Bieber's songs

4. Got Max's photo with black shirt. he's so cute and i like his smile in that pic.

(sorry not the real pic cause if i post it, it'll be a big trouble:D)


5. Max's reply my texts

6. I can LOL and tell joke with him and see his big beautiful smile for me.

7. Go to basketball practice with my friends.

8. sing and dance in my room and no ones will ever know.

9. these converse shoes (i wanna buy it !)

10. and last, my love for Max become 5th months :P
i always love you Max, Always.
you said that you look for a girl that beautiful and loyal. so here i am, i've been love you for 5th months. 

can you see ? that you belong with me. Max, you belong with me
Forever & Always
 ♥

actually there's so many things that i love in this week but, this is the greatest.
and
YOU who always read my blog and comment it, you're the person that i love this week :)
thanks for always check my ordinary blog, read my stupid story, and comment it (even when i'm late to reply it)
I Love You All With All My Heart

Love
-T- 

What a Beautiful Day ?

i know i always said 

' Today was a fairytale'

' this is the greatest day in my entire life'

but, you know it is...

I just LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE this day !!!

and i guess you know the reason.

yuph ! because of Max. he makes my day bright and i said

" I Love this day!" and i feel like i'm ready to fight this day haha

first, sorry i don't post something for one day (??) i feel so sorry about that to my 'Fairytale' i'm sorry to leave you alone. cause you know yesterday i had a basketball practice. i really HATE HATE HATE physical exercise. uurrggghhh we had 2 coach to train us. i don't like the one of my coach, she's so loud (yea my coach is a lady/girl) :D

but, i like the one she's so kind and funny.

and today...

is the greatest is like my pain of yesterday gone.

today, as ussual i ate in canteen and Max sit in front of me (a little bit right). i was so happy but i try to calm down. i act like i don't care but still i can't hide my smile.

so i just talk and when Novel ask who's Widya's boyfriend, he looks at me.

Ifan ask my permission to tell them or not.

and he said to me

" Who is he ?"

i said

" ask Ifan" but Ifan just laugh and won't tell them

so, i decided to tell Max who's Widya's boyfriend.

and he just laugh and don't believing in what i said.and we're laugh together while talk about them

at second break just like always i went to his class just to talk and had jokes with my friends in junior class.

and once again we're talk and laugh. so many things that we're laugh about 

and there's the times when Max played with his friends and i was looked at him i smiled to him and he reply it with his big beautiful smile ever !

my heart went knock..knock haha

and there's the times when we're jokes and i laugh because he's so funny 

This is The Beautifulest Day of The Beautiful Days.

Love Love Max,

xoxo

********* 

guess it it's his name haha 

 

Scanner Board of Love

Today i had a computer exam.  and i forgot to bring my scanner board. so tried so hard to find someone who bring it. then, i went to max's class and widya ask

" does anybody bring a scanner board"

and then Ifan (one of students or my friends in basketball team) said

" max..!"

and i said (with a little bit happy and nervous)

"may i borrow your scanner board ?"

and the he said

" here, for what ?"

me: " for computer's exam, thanks" with a smile.

i came to my class and so happy told my friends

" guess who have this one ?"

and my friend said

" max's"

"ya.." and all students in my class just gave me this sound

" cieeee..." whistle and something else 

i am so excited at that time !

and i said

" please be my good luck charm"

haha :)

and at 2nd break i gave his scanner board back. but, he isn't there so i gave the scanner board to Ifan

and when i have a talk with my friends.

i saw max and i said

"Thank you.."

and he just smile :)

a beautiful smile haha

well, this afternoon is raining in my school.

i waited for my friends. and i saw him, i saw him under the tree.

i smile at him and he's smile at me too.

wow ! what a wonderful day ...?

i just won't forget this day in my entire life

Fresh News !

Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas is Dating !!!

finally after a moths she told the media that she didn't date him.

During an interview with Access Hollywood’s Billy Bush on his radio program, The Billy Bush Show, the host asked Lovato if she’d ever dated any of the Jonas Brothers, 

“Umm, maybe,” she said coyly.

“Which one? Joe?” asked Bush,to which 

Lovato said, “Yeah. He’s actually… he’s my best friend.”

Pressing for clarification, Bush said, “So you guys went from boyfriend-girlfriend to best friends?”

“No kind of the opposite,” the 17-year-old Sonny with a Chance star explained.

“Oh? So you’re dating him now?” asked Bush.

“Umm, yeah he is my best friend and he is incredible,” Lovato finally confessed.

Lovato described her Camp Rock 2 costar as a “complete gentleman,” who “treats me to the most amazing places.”

She added, “He’s perfect.” 

great hah ? and paparazzi capture them at local church

 

find the at local park (they're so sweeet)

  (laying on the grass together it's so sweet)

and paparazzi catch them after shopping too

 

 well, i guess that's all the story that i want to tell you today.

hope ya'll get a wonderful day too :)

Love

-Ladinia-

I Text, You Text, We're Texting !

feel great today !

today max and i text each other.

finally after the days we're not texting cause he doesn't had any pulse anymore.

we're back again. texting again.

you don't had any idea how much happy i am and i'm so nervous. i'm so confused to find things to ask him. but, he always makes it easy.

when i text him, he's playing Plays Station hahha and he says that he's palying NSF Mostwanted (a car racing game).

we talks so many things and i'm just so confused to tell you one by one.

plus i'm so happy today !!

He got me amazing cause' he was so amazing

he got me smile cause' he so cool

he got me laugh cause he so honest about everything :)

maybe it's time i tell you how great he is and always makes me crazier and crazier everytime i saw him.

1. he's calm but friendly.

2. he's cool and smart

3. he's nice and awesome

4. he has a beautifulest smile ( maybe it's been one hundred times, i told you)

5. he has a great eyes ever

6. and the way he walking is perfect

7. he has a unique name too

8. and once again he's sooooo

CHARMING !

he's my prince charming :)

and.. this is the things that makes me jump so high !

he sends back to me a "love forever" text.

wow! you know kinda..

'send this message to your bestfriends and you couple and if it's back blablablabla...... you'll get your love in 25 march'

woohhhoooo

usually, im not believe in that. but ! he sends back to is the one who makes me AWESOME !

im so excited thank you

'Max..'

Love Love Love You Always

xoxo

-Ladinia-

God Always Tell Us The Truth

hey bloggers.. 

i feel so lucky today. i feel so lucky because God always tell me the truth. the truth from all of our wishes, and our hopes. God always tell the truth when i'm so confused at things when it's getting wrong. for example when i'm in 5th grade i lost my money. im praying to God to  give me the clue where my money is. i try so hard to find it, until one day im letting it go. i'm hoping for God to give the money for someone who belongs to, and if anyone steal it from me show them His madness.

one day, i dreamed about that money i dreamed that i was putted my money in my jeans pocket. i woke up the next morning and go find it and ya there it is. my money is in my jeans pocket the exactly jeans that i had in my dream.

thanks for Allah who makes it easy for me :)

and now, once again God tell me truth.He tell me about Max. just like i told for you before ( at this blog ) i had a weirdest dream about Max. i dreamed that he's share his phone with his brother.

and today it's true! max really sharing his phone with his brother, i think so because i look his brother's phone is like max's phone. and when he doesn't had any pulse anymore, his brother too.

today, Max's didn't bring phone and ya his phone is with his brother.

Thanks God for keep telling me the truth from all :)

i am so sorry when i can't be a good enough person who always praying and say thank you for all this beautiful gift that You already give to me. i'm sorry if i always make You mad and run from you.

Ya Allah... please don't leave me alone when anythings getting wrong or when it's right.

please show me the way to be in Your beautiful place, heaven.

please please please... to always help me in this big worlds with thousands of problems that already attacking me.

now I believe..

That God will never let us alone, that God always be there with us, and always tell the truth. 

(i don't have any idea for this title post)

bloggers i really don't have any idea what i should post today. i don't have any color in mind to painting in my blog wall. 

*sigh*  well, at least i closed with 'max' today :P

i went to his class at school today, i didn't mean to see him but to play with my friends at junior class. and there's i saw him and once again he's playing his cube. he's really good at it :)

i just play and talked with my friends haha :) act like i don't care about him cause i try really hard to do that but, i can't. sometimes i look at him and he look at me too, when i smile he's smile too, when i'm laugh he's too.

weird ha ? but he never reply my text anymore. :((

at this time....

uuurrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhh..

I HATE YOU !!!!!!

but, tomorrow when i see him again i can't hate him anymore.  uurrgghh how it could be like that 

oh ! i just remember that i had a weird dream ever ! it's about max.

so this is my dream's story.

my school suddenly is in the middle middle of like a forest or something i was playing flying fox. (weird ha)

and then after i play, i walk and sit in front of a class. i saw a girl and i ask her

" who are you ?"

and she said " i am max's sister"

what ???? max only had one brother.

after that, she took out  her phone and i asked her

" is that your phone"

she said " no, it's my brother's phone" it means it's max's phone.

i woke up and think maybe God trying to told me that Max is share his phone with his bro.

i don't know the truth but i hope he doesn't had a pulse anymore so he can't reply my text.

with that, i know that he can't reply my text not because he hates me :)

Wait For You

bloggers..

i'm waiting for him to reply my message.. i don't know why.

maybe he's forget or he's lazy or maybe he doesn't want to reply my message again.

uuurrgghhh why someone that you love never loving you back.

is it true? that we have to love someone that loves us ?

Max..

i wait for you, always :(

remember everything in that day when we were promised.

You promised me max.. :(

please..please don't make me sad again. i never do that to you

I Like You...

Never Had This Feeling 'till You Come Around

You're Shine so Bright. You Make My Rainy Day Become a Sunny Day

You're The One With The Beautifulest Smile I've Ever Seen

I Like Everything In You, Your Laugh, Your Eyes even when you're walking

So, Tell Me Something..Something That Everyone Else Never Say To Me Before. Makes Me Yours. Forever

Let Me Fly With You, Let Me Know What You Really Feel About Me, Let Me Know If You Wanna Be With Me

Cause' Everytime You Smile, I Smile. and Every Nights All I Can Think Is You

Listen to My Song about You...

Read Our Fairytale, It's About Us

Walk With Me, Hold My Hands, and You Can See The Sky Comes Gold

Let Me Stay With You Forever... Max

Cause it's a Love Story Baby Just Say Yes
Love Story-Taylor Swift

Max, this is what i think about you. thanks for makes me feel what love likes.

if we can't be together just let me be your Friends and laugh together so i can see your laugh for a long time.