You probably won't read this stupid sad true story of mine.

first of all, sorry for no post for like months hehe. got busy with tests i'm a 9 grader :)

so i probably will rarely updating my blog. Sorry guys :)

so here it is... it's a stupid sad true story of mine. you probably want to sleep if you see this. but you have to read this and give me your opinion, and by the way. i want to THANK YOU and I APOLOGIZE IF I HAVE ANY MISTAKES. wish me luck for my National Exam okey ? :)

one thing that i ever hate is

Saying hello that end up with a goodbye, and doing it all over again and again.

do you feel what i really feel ? guess not.

let me get it straight for you. just imagine like this.

you're moved to a new place, a new environment, meet new people.

saying hello to everybody and tell about yourself, not long you become really close with them.

close i mean, like it will never fade away, and you'll not go away. you always stay together with them.

but, you realized that it'll never happen. you say goodbye and moved away. leave everyone you thought you'd never lose.

then stay in a new place, saying hello, get really close with everybody, then you have to say goodbye again, you moved. and it will go on and go on.

Now, do you really understand what i feel ?

i'm sick with all this stupid useless things.

i want to stay in one place, with everybody i loved, and never leave them.

i hate it ! i hate to know that i already moved for 8 times, and now i have to do it all over again.

i have to say hello to everyone that i will say goodbye in the end.

i mean, i just wish i say hello to everyone i'll never say goodbye to.

when i was a young girl, moved away it's not really this bad. i don't even think that i have to say goodbye in the end.

all i think about is 'how beautiful is the place where i will stay', 'hows the house ?', 'is there any playground'.

i didn't think that i have to making new friends and blending with the environment.

because, it was more easier when you're still a kid. people stay the same.

But when you're growing up, things happen. mostly bad things, people changes, and friends leave.

like what happened to me when i was a 7 grader on one of the junior high school in Malang.

ever heard BULLYING ?

yuph, that's what attacked me. get bullied is bad as hell that ever happened to me.

i'm not telling my mom, because i think that it happens because of my parents told me to moved.

i know it's wrong but, i can't trust anyone at that time. even when i cried and yelled " I don't want to school in there!!!"

my mom only said "it's school, all you have to do is studying." i really hate that sentence since i heard it.

i mean i am a human, you can't live alone, you can't even die alone.

and i can't go to school and not talk with everybody except book. that sucks !

now, bully is gone. i've moved like i always do.

get a new place, new life a much better life, and great friends.

spend my 2 years in a great class with an extraordinary people. 9-1 (NinE ONe) a.k.a NEON.

good times happens, well there's a bad times but all i can remember is LAUGH.

i don't want to leave this class.

my feelings for has grow and it becomes great and greater.

now, i'm a 9 grader soon i will leave my junior high school. i will leave this extraordinary class.

Time flies so fast you know. and what makes it sucks is, to know that time flies so fast when you're enjoying your good times. but when you're sad, time goes slower than ever.

that's why i always try to capture every moment that i had. because deep down i know that soon or later, i will lose it. if i lose it,  i want to remember it one day.

i will put those perfect photos in special photo album, that one day when i old i will open it again and remembering all the beautiful moments i had. to understands that 

Life is not just about pain its also about happiness. Its about Love and Heartbreak. Its about Tears and Laugh. Its about me and them. Its about Me and Him. its about US.

and it will remain the same if one day, just "if" one day we all changed.

 if i have to fill this post with all the great photos, it will never ends.

i wanna say thank you to every single person of you, who makes me smile even just for a while.

you have to know that, even just for a while you already gave me one great memories that will always stay in my heart.

Love-Love-Love

Ladinia Dalintasya.

Drowning in The Past

Yesterday i just started school and homeworks get crazy !!

Exams next week plus i had a middles semester exam on 11th October,

so i only had about..two weeks for study.

uurrgghhh !!!

Life gets better anyway i become more ready to face the Final Exam on March.

my problem get done clearly.

but i still want to back to the past i don't know why but seems like, God gave me a full bucket of chances

and i didn't took it. stupid, i know.

so many beautiful memories in the past that i can capture with my camera, so the memory will last forever.

but once again, i didn't do it. is like just pass away."i don't care" is what i do

i make someone hurts and make so much mistakes, that i think it was right. at that time

but, i realized that it's wrong and i can't say sorry cause i moved and people i hurt are far away.

now, God gave me a full tank of chances :)

chances to catch the beautiful memories through my Dad's camera,

not just by camera.. also by my eyes and my mind 

the beautiful memories i had just keep running like a movie and i don't want it o end.

if its have to, i want to make it a Happy Ending.

chances to more respect somebody else, through my experiences of making friends hurt

and learn more about this life...

Headband: it's an unbranded necklace actually :D

Top: Contempo

Maxi Skirt: Mom's

Unbranded Scarf

and Since 1996 i'm beginning my life.

taking risk and chances

remember everything, doesn't matter happy or sad

and learn from experiences.

For me, Life is a Journey That Will Never Ends

so This is maybe the start but you know what ?

the real start is The Life after This Life.

much Love <3

-Tasya-

Take a Deep Breath, Girl

Happy New Month Everybody !

in this first day of July, things are getting complicated.

first, i'm sick. uhh this body is so weak all i drink is hot tea. if you see me now maybe you'll think that i'm okay.

i hate to be seen as a weak person to others.

when i'm sick i never saw to everyone well, maybe my mom and my family who knows that.

my friends ? they doesn't really know that. all i gonna do is just act like everything is fine. laugh as always, smile as always, walk as always. just like everyday. when i'm home bed seems like a heaven.

second, i had a problem. hard to explain i don't know if this only my problem or my family too.

let's say like this

" when something that you want doesn't go so well"

okay, i don't think that i have to share this problem to everyone, but i just so confused. whenever i start to feel happiness, something bad comes. i wonder why.

all i know this life is about to enjoy, but how could you enjoy a problem ??

that's what makes me sometimes afraid to feel a happiness.

Life is up and down, strong and weak, hard and easy and everything else.

you can say that i'm down, and it's makes me weak because it's really hard to pass this problem.

i hope everythings gonna be fine soon or later.

i want a happiness without afraid to feel it.

i just..i just need a time to think maybe. to pray, to keep a strength, to figure out what will happen next.

i wish i can pass this problem straightly.

God... I Need Your Clue, only You who can makes me feel safe and comfortable.

Wish Me Luck guys

Love You All

-Tasya-

7-1 Reunion !!

at weekend, i had a great weekend cause i've been all day long escape from my room that makes me bored.

first at Saturday, just chat and surf the net nothing special. boring. really boring.

but ! Sunday (yeeahh) i escaped from my house all day long ! finally..

at the morning me and family went to e-walk for shopping and lunch.

we're lunch at Mr.Pancake at there i ate chicken bbq and my little bro ate spaghetti. my mom ate rainbow ice cream (it's a vanilla ice cream with strawberry, mango, and kiwi). we're laugh when my little bro lost his shoe. haha and we found his shoe at front of the resto. haha i don't have any idea how it could be like that hahha.

after that we went to ' Lapangan Merdeka' to ate Siomay and batogor ( it's one of Indonesia's traditional food it's a  fried soybean curd that filled with meatball). it's very DELICIOUS you have to taste it sometimes:).

after that, my family take me to the reunion.

The 7-1 grade reunion was held at Kemala Beach.

my friends who's attend that reunion are: Ilma, Tasya, Acha, Wulan, Fira, Fanny, Dwi, Bayu, Kadar, Wildan, Sophianur, Yanuar, and Rian. yeah i know it's not all the students but, it's still FUN !

(The Girls)

 (The Boys)

 (Catch Fanny, Ilma ! and then makes her get a shower twice haha)

 ( Pose !)

( cause it's starts rainy so we blew the cloud till it move, but it's still rain anyway haha of course it is)

so we decided to stay for a while at Dwi's car and a hut.

( rain or not we still 'narsis' ha ?)


Fira, Fanny, and Chintya decided to sing a song while waiting :)

(chintya the one who's play the guitar, fira the one with yellow jacket and Dwi the one with blue jacket)

after that we decided to go to Monumen Beach,we're walked at least 10 minutes from Kemala Beach.

( on the way to Monumen Beach)

after we arrived at Monumen beach we held a picnic there. my friends: Ilma, Tasya, and Fira cooks for us. they cooked chicken fried, omelet and Indonesian traditional sambal. hhmm.. DELICIOUS ! my friends are good at cooking :P

(ilma's hand)

 

of course we took a lots of pics too..

at monumen beach :

( Acha tooks it )

 ( i took this pic, and she don't know hha candid)

 

 

at Kemala Beach:

 

 ( i like this pic, cause tasya's hair is blow with the wind, haha of course who's took it ?? ME !

hehhe)

 

 

 

 

and last but not least are........

OUR PHOTO TOGETHER !

 

 

i know it's just a simple reunion but i hope there's a second so all the students in 7-1 will meet and greet together again..

well, that's all my highlight weekend 

thanks for read and enjoy :)

please leave a comment

xoxo

-T-

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Girl In a Dreamland

who?

is the first question what i want to ask. 

girl in a dreamland trying to dream what happened in her life tomorrow. dream about everything, dream about her fave actor loves her. dream that she can do everything she want, no ones telling her what she must to do. dream about someday her and her prince can be together. live in a small house near the river with large garden full of lily and trees to swing. have a happily ever after life with him who always in her side and never let her falls. dream that he's her guardian angel.

girl in a dreamland, dream to know what will happens tomorrow. with that, she hopes that she might never makes a mistake. she hopes that she can be perfect. makes everyone in her life proud of her, never leave her. she hopes that she can control her life just like what she want to. so, she always right. she hopes that she can control the weather so when she want to go and it's rainy she makes it bright again. control the weather so she can feel what summer, winter, spring, and falls like.

girl in a dreamland, dream about she can be the popular girl in her school. so many boys text him and likes her. with that everyone will think that she's pretty. she hopes that everybody will crazy everytime she smile at them.

girl in a dreamland, dream about things that she already wanted for her entire life can she have. doesn't care about money. she want to be rich and buy all the stuff she wants to. doesn't care about her parents who not allowed it. she hopes that she can makes a lots of money by herself to get everythings she wants.

girl in a dreamland, realized that's all just dreams. beautiful dreams to start a brighter life that she already painted in her blog wall. colors that depends on her emotions, words depends on her feelings. and feelings that depends on herself.

everyone told her to always be happy. she's sure that  they realized that is just a words. they can't be happy forever. it's depends on us. depend on who you really are.
depend on everything that you already have.

girl in a dreamland, now she run away to escape from her dreamland. she already stuck in this world since her was a little girl, she dreams about what she want to be someday. a princess, ballerina, or to became a beautiful queen to serve the greatest country.
when she trying to find the door, she lost it. she can't find the door anymore. she crying, crying so hard but no one listen to her. she's stuck. she will stuck forever in her own dreamland.

girl in a dreamland, still crying and ask for help. she's scream until her last sound. but she falls again. she laying on the ground hope that someone will find her. but no one comes out even her guardian angel.

girl in a dreamland, she realized that the one who will save her is herself. she try to get up, fixed her dream.
now, her millions dreams become to just three of dreams:
1. her life goes just the way it is.
2. chances to dreams again and again.
3.everyone in her life never leave her.

girl in dreamland, finally live in her dreamland with everyone who loves her and everyone she loves. she realized that God already gave millions gifts to her. family, friends, and her guardian angel. she realized that this is her life, her life that goes the way it is with everyone she loves, and chances to dreams again and again.

now, who is that girl ??