a little to late

First of all i wanna say something to my beautifulest, sweetest kind person i've ever know.  it is my 'BFF'. 

Lorine Kalista Noor from Strawterost . 

Happy Birthday Girl !

Hope You Had a Great B'day Ever!

Wish All Your Dreams Come True

and All The Best For You :)

Thanks for be there for me through it all,

Thanks for all your advice when everythings gone wrong.

Thanks for all your support until now.

and Thanks for be my Best Friend for 3 years.

even now, you've get older please don't forget our childish things together. be the best dear.. :)

p.s: i'm sorry, it's late cause there's something wrong with this stupid modem she had a surprise that she'll never forget ! go to her blog to read more :)

and the second thing i wanna tell you, it's about max..

it's over you know, no more max anymore in my life.

no more talk about him, no more happiness if he's smile at me.

On 25th April 2010

i text him, it' doesn't take a long time that my phone ring. he's reply my text, a text that makes me confused

" I Don't want you to care about me anymore !"

my heart suddenly stop beating, i reply his text

" What Do You Mean "

then, after a long time like 30 minutes he's reply my text

" I don't want you to care about me anymore, if you want just say 'hi' to me, don't talk to me ! i need times for my friends and my girlfriend !"

after i read that text, i just put my phone down and pretend like everythings will be okay.

i just can't believe that, after a long time he's shares everything with me, even the stories about his GF.

i've never mad if he's told stories about his GF, even i know deeply inside i'm jealous.
i've been listening to his stories for such a long time, and i was surprised that he's pushing me away.
do you know how i feel ? at least we can be friends, not like this.
i hate him cause he said
"I need times for my friends...."
did you mean i'm not you're friends ?! but why max? why ?!
did you forgotten about all the stories you told me ?! are you forgetten when we're jokes together ?!
when we're sang a song ?! it's 'Lucky' i still remember it !
I CAN NOT BELIEVE IT !
i will walk away from you, now !

the next morning.

i don't want to saw his face anymore.

he said that he want me to not care about him anymore, so yes i do.

I DON'T WANT TO TAKE CARE OF YOU ANYMORE !

everytime he's look at me, i just turn my face and walk away.

days by days he's keep look at me i've never see his face again. it's enough max ! i can mad too not just you !

YOU'RE NOT SORRY.

you always makes my heart hurts again and again.

after all i don't need you to be the right guy for me.

and now i realized that you're not my PRINCE CHARMING.

Facts that I Found Today:

Everyone Will Waiting, but it's not forever.
i've been waiting for him but now i know 
forever aren't forever

H&K

-Tasya-

More More In Hate With You

if i ask you

" do you believe in true love ?"

i'm sure that you'll answer "yes"

but, i had my own answer

" Yes, but they'll never be with you "

i just can believe how stupid i am when i'm falling in love in a wrong guy.

the one who always makes me hurts, makes me sad, makes me cry, makes me want to hate him so much.

today i found that Max get back with his ex-GF.

i found him at the canteen, i want to buy a water. so, i saw him sit and his ex-GF buy a water maybe because i'm there so his ex-GF sat in different seat. and when i look at him, he looks at me with a scary faces makes me scared.

i'm just so confused why he so hates me when i know about him and his ex-GF ?

like i will tell everyone in school that you're with her ?!

like i will tell everyone that she's not right with you ?!

like i will destroy your relationship ?!

i was crying out like that when i'm home, i throw my bag on my bed. and crying out loud with my face closed by my pillow.

when i see my face in the mirror i felt so stupid !

" why i'm crying just for a boy like him ?!"

" I HATE YOU ! WHY YOU JUST NOT INVISIBLE ? I AM INVISIBLE FOR YOU RIGHT ? I WANT YOU TO GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE ! I'D PREFER STRANDED IN A DESSERT ALONE, THAT BE WITH YOU HERE AND ALWAYS SEE YOUR (STUPID) FACE ! "

i know it's just not like me, but you're the one who makes me like this.

and now, facts that i found today :

1. True Love is Real but, They'll Never Be With You

2. Love = Pain

3. More in Hate With You

Welcome April !!

Hey Everybody ! It's April !!

Wow! times goes really fast. just yesterday i said "Welcome March" and now we're entering the new month.

well, Happy New Month Everybody !

it's really nice to know that God still give me a chance to live in this world, to feel, and remember the things after 14th years i live.

Thanks God..

well, not all months goes so well. it must have the things that makes me happy and sad in this March.

and here they are. i try to share it with you.

Things Makes Me Happy In This March :

- There's so much unforgettable memories about Max and I such as: we're talk and LOL, text so FUN, and smile to each other and so many else.

- Had a school holiday for a week.

- Got a new bag :P, a cute little bag for hang out.

- My Best Friend, Nanda had a sweet birthday surprise from my friend. too bad i can't join them cause we're apart now.

- Watched horror movies with friends and still LOL till now if we remember all the 'funny things'.

- Got an extra time to spend my day in front of my laptop.

- Spend more time with my little bro.

- Got an extra money form my dad (I Love You Daddy !)

Things Makes Me Out OF My Mood In This March:

 - School break that makes me get bored.

- Getting lazy to go to basketball practice.

- Got nothing to do.

- 'Max' share a story about 'something' that makes him happy but makes me sad.

- My mom goes to Malang for two weeks.

- No Hang out and almost spend my days in my room.

- To clean my messy room :D.

- Sick that makes me (maybe) not go to basketball practice tomorrow.

- Can't see Max for one weeks (blah!)

- I Miss my class, and my friends too. i wanna LOL and get crazy with them again.

- Wet season in my country. hate rain -,-

My Hope For This Month:

- My BFF, Oline's Birthday can be the greatest and unforgettable birthday bash for her(it's 28th A.

- Got someone for April Fool's day! haha

- Max can spend more time with me. text me, smile at me, talk and LOL again.

- Max doesn't get back with his ex-GF.

- Out of my 'bored' mood.

- Can playing basketball better than now.

- Everyday such a beautiful day to spend.

- Can get more ideas and inspiration for posting in this blog.

- hope in this new month i can be a better person that before.

-More Sunny day to spend in.

 

so, that's all Things That Makes Me Happy, Makes Me Sad, and My Hope for this Month.

thank you for you who always read and say hello in my blog. can't wait for more hello :)

 LoveLove,xo

-T-

 

   

It's Nice to Know You But It Hurts so much

to know you, it's nice

to smile at you, it's great

to see your smile at me, it's wonderful

to talk with you, it's awesome

to texting with you, it's fun

to love you, it's beautiful

to have you, it's impossible.

 

you're everything i've ever wanted but you always makes me hurts so much.

i want to forget you but it's hard.

so i don't wanna know about love anymore

all you can do is broke my heart over and over. again and again.

don't you know that you're the only thing on my mind that i always miss, i always need, and i always love.

it's you baby..its you..

but you broke my heart !

it's enough !!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(image via we heart it) 

The Movie Was HORROR but Why Is It FUNNY ?

that tittle is a question to me.

so this day i watched movie called " The Messangers 2: The Scarecrow"

the genre of the movies is horror but why is it funny ?

first thing that go on your mind maybe " yeah it's the genre of that movie horror comedy".

but no! for me that movies was truly horror and thriller. i always afraid of thriller movie. cause of the violence.

watch movie with friends is really FUN. especially if the movie we watch is horror. the music that so loud, they're turn off the lights and the screams from the audience that shocked by the loud music.

if the music goes weird or suddenly off, that's the clue for the shocking music and i already close my ear with my hand haha i'm so shocked everytime that loud music comes.

plus...! my friends beside me (left and right) screams while they're trying to hide behind me. my ears feels like " boooiinnggg"

first when i arrived, bought  a small popcorn then entered the theater.

wooo.. i love my seat you know why ??

because my friend beside me bought popcorn too, i putted mine in my left food pocket and my friends at my right. so strategic ! all you have to do is choose. left or right. but i choose both of them :P

there's a time when my friends that sat in front of me talked to us and when the music goes loud, they scream so loud too hahha it's FUN to saw their freakin' out face haha.

and when the stars on that movie fight the ghost the music was so shocking us ! and i saw my friends that sat in front of me freakin' out while hug my friend that sat in the middle of them haha. that's so romantic and creepy haha

at the end of the movie when they're turn back on the lights there's a child that scream so loud. of course we laugh cause' he's so cute and "come'on they're just turn on the lights" haha why he's scream ? .

too bad i don't bring my camera :( but i still captured all the FUNNY moments in my mind it's so beautiful and still got me LOL. just like a movie.

after watch movies. we went to the mall that near the movie.

i found a child that race a little car. and i just blocked his way. if he's go right, i go right. if he's go left i'll go left haha (i am very sneaky). and that boy whine said "mama.." haha and i just walk away while laugh with my friends :P

i can stay too long with my friends cause' i'm promise with my mom to go home before my brothers go home (yes my bro go to school). huh.. i hate it, i wanna stay with my friends and LOL with them.

oh yes ! there's one thing that i wanna tell you,

yesterday i bought max pulse so we texting. and you know what max always act like don't care about everything. but yesterday he's so funny. he's got a sense of humor too.

unpredictable boy. LIKE IT !

p.s: i made a new header, what do you guys think ? is it good ? please tell me what you think. oh! and i made a new button too, please copy the code to your blog :)

thanks all

-T-

What I Love about This Week

well, finally comes Saturday. my favorite day in whole week.

no lessons, no practice, and no study cause tomorrow is a holiday haha

yes ! i'm on holiday for a month yayyy..

from 29 March until 3rd April lol

a month isn't it ? :D

so, i decided to make things that i love in this week :)

1. Almost everyday i'm surfing the net since my mom goes to Malang. (hehe bad girl)

2. Listen to Alice In Wonderland Soundtrack 'Almost Alice' everyday. just some songs that sang by singer that i know.

 
3. Listen to Justin Bieber's songs

4. Got Max's photo with black shirt. he's so cute and i like his smile in that pic.

(sorry not the real pic cause if i post it, it'll be a big trouble:D)


5. Max's reply my texts

6. I can LOL and tell joke with him and see his big beautiful smile for me.

7. Go to basketball practice with my friends.

8. sing and dance in my room and no ones will ever know.

9. these converse shoes (i wanna buy it !)

10. and last, my love for Max become 5th months :P
i always love you Max, Always.
you said that you look for a girl that beautiful and loyal. so here i am, i've been love you for 5th months. 

can you see ? that you belong with me. Max, you belong with me
Forever & Always
 ♥

actually there's so many things that i love in this week but, this is the greatest.
and
YOU who always read my blog and comment it, you're the person that i love this week :)
thanks for always check my ordinary blog, read my stupid story, and comment it (even when i'm late to reply it)
I Love You All With All My Heart

Love
-T- 

What a Beautiful Day ?

i know i always said 

' Today was a fairytale'

' this is the greatest day in my entire life'

but, you know it is...

I just LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE this day !!!

and i guess you know the reason.

yuph ! because of Max. he makes my day bright and i said

" I Love this day!" and i feel like i'm ready to fight this day haha

first, sorry i don't post something for one day (??) i feel so sorry about that to my 'Fairytale' i'm sorry to leave you alone. cause you know yesterday i had a basketball practice. i really HATE HATE HATE physical exercise. uurrggghhh we had 2 coach to train us. i don't like the one of my coach, she's so loud (yea my coach is a lady/girl) :D

but, i like the one she's so kind and funny.

and today...

is the greatest is like my pain of yesterday gone.

today, as ussual i ate in canteen and Max sit in front of me (a little bit right). i was so happy but i try to calm down. i act like i don't care but still i can't hide my smile.

so i just talk and when Novel ask who's Widya's boyfriend, he looks at me.

Ifan ask my permission to tell them or not.

and he said to me

" Who is he ?"

i said

" ask Ifan" but Ifan just laugh and won't tell them

so, i decided to tell Max who's Widya's boyfriend.

and he just laugh and don't believing in what i said.and we're laugh together while talk about them

at second break just like always i went to his class just to talk and had jokes with my friends in junior class.

and once again we're talk and laugh. so many things that we're laugh about 

and there's the times when Max played with his friends and i was looked at him i smiled to him and he reply it with his big beautiful smile ever !

my heart went knock..knock haha

and there's the times when we're jokes and i laugh because he's so funny 

This is The Beautifulest Day of The Beautiful Days.

Love Love Max,

xoxo

********* 

guess it it's his name haha 

 

Scanner Board of Love

Today i had a computer exam.  and i forgot to bring my scanner board. so tried so hard to find someone who bring it. then, i went to max's class and widya ask

" does anybody bring a scanner board"

and then Ifan (one of students or my friends in basketball team) said

" max..!"

and i said (with a little bit happy and nervous)

"may i borrow your scanner board ?"

and the he said

" here, for what ?"

me: " for computer's exam, thanks" with a smile.

i came to my class and so happy told my friends

" guess who have this one ?"

and my friend said

" max's"

"ya.." and all students in my class just gave me this sound

" cieeee..." whistle and something else 

i am so excited at that time !

and i said

" please be my good luck charm"

haha :)

and at 2nd break i gave his scanner board back. but, he isn't there so i gave the scanner board to Ifan

and when i have a talk with my friends.

i saw max and i said

"Thank you.."

and he just smile :)

a beautiful smile haha

well, this afternoon is raining in my school.

i waited for my friends. and i saw him, i saw him under the tree.

i smile at him and he's smile at me too.

wow ! what a wonderful day ...?

i just won't forget this day in my entire life

Fresh News !

Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas is Dating !!!

finally after a moths she told the media that she didn't date him.

During an interview with Access Hollywood’s Billy Bush on his radio program, The Billy Bush Show, the host asked Lovato if she’d ever dated any of the Jonas Brothers, 

“Umm, maybe,” she said coyly.

“Which one? Joe?” asked Bush,to which 

Lovato said, “Yeah. He’s actually… he’s my best friend.”

Pressing for clarification, Bush said, “So you guys went from boyfriend-girlfriend to best friends?”

“No kind of the opposite,” the 17-year-old Sonny with a Chance star explained.

“Oh? So you’re dating him now?” asked Bush.

“Umm, yeah he is my best friend and he is incredible,” Lovato finally confessed.

Lovato described her Camp Rock 2 costar as a “complete gentleman,” who “treats me to the most amazing places.”

She added, “He’s perfect.” 

great hah ? and paparazzi capture them at local church

 

find the at local park (they're so sweeet)

  (laying on the grass together it's so sweet)

and paparazzi catch them after shopping too

 

 well, i guess that's all the story that i want to tell you today.

hope ya'll get a wonderful day too :)

Love

-Ladinia-